Umm, ummmm, and ummmmmm.... Not sure what I want to say, so I'll play it safe and be nice. J comes in tomorrow. It's anyone's guess how the weekend will go. We'll either work things out gingerly, have a big blow-up, or, one of these days, call the whole thing off. It's kind of scary the way we're playing around with our lives and marriage. I certainly don't feel much of a commitment -- not sure about J. Which means, that if things line up just right, it'll be all over.

I've figured out something else. When J and I have anything positive, it's ususally because I've gone over to where he is. He rarely steps out of where he lives and into where I am. He won't join me in a space where the two of us can exist. He wants me to join him and all those he drags along with him. 'I' know what I mean by that. I'm not sure I said it so anyone else can understand.

Moving righ along.... I had my hair highlighted and cut today. Looks good even if I say so myself. ;) My stylist is back from maternity leave. I had no idea what kind of baby gift to get her, so I got a gift certificate from Babies R Us and she seemed pleased.

While I was picking up the gift card, I decided to look for something for J for Father's Day. (He got me nothing for Mother's Day -- didn't even say Happy M's Day or offer to pick up food or anything.) Anywho....I was at our old mall, where I haven't been for sometime, and I ended up parking by this new store, so in I went. I found J a couple of odd shirts -- one with Liverpool printed on it, and one with Dublin printed on it, and a long sleeve BAMA shirt, and camo cargo shorts. I also downloaded some photos of the AL house from Terra Server (great site) and used those along with some photos of his growing up to make a shadow box.

The heat has been a-w-f-u-l this week, and last week also. It's supposed to be even hotter tomorrow. I don't see how that can be.

Tomorrow is weigh in for WWs. I don't know if the scales will show any weight loss. I've been following the diet, so I hope it works. I'm commited to it because, G-d knows, I've got to loose about 15 lbs. I'd love to loose 20 lbs. I can pretty much find my way around the WWs site. It's good....has lots of information.